I look for you

I look for you
in every station of this city of yours.
Restlessly, randomly, i look about.
Till I wear myself out

Those are the moments,
when I look within.

I know by heart your address;
Your neighbour's daughters name,
The make of the car you want to buy,
But, I can't find you.

You, have escaped my universe
My streets are bare
my cafes empty
and your name,
Your heartening lovely name,
refuses to take form on my tongue..

It is time that I have lost you to.
Moments and shadows,
have taken you away

I could go on living ofcourse.
Move on to parallel cities,
serial people..

But I stay rooted.
And seek you desperately.
Because I can't do otherwise.
because I am afraid,
That I lost myself
the day I lost you

Words and us (Part I)

It is what you said the other day...
About adjustment
Why are sacrifice, adjustment, morality important?
Those drab yellowed greyish words;
that take up more space than you and me
They stifle, they encroach
they land on you with a thud
flatten the life in you...

And yet they are important
They make you upright citizens
Pillars of the society.

While we dwell on this, lets talk about life.
My life should not be boxy I know
But father said it shouldn't be a wave either;