Wednesday 12 June 2019

Brave, but not really.

I am brave. Like in physical things that solicit brazen rebellion. But in the quiet things,...those whisperings of the soul that appear shrouded and foggy even to your own mind...I fail. I give in. To the definitive baritone of patriarchy. Every fucking time. That which pumps self doubt into my anatomy. Deepening my blue every passing minute.

Brave, but not really.

Sunday 2 June 2019

Musings

On days when I run
A race I am not meant to
The disappointment creeps up
With tugs I don’t relent to
I hold my head high
And try and justify
The wanderings of a soul
That can’t pin what it’s into

Sunday 12 June 2016

Soil softened, tenderized by firm pattering rain
Like dough kneaded intimately with round fingertips
Like skin made supple by massage
Emits a distinctive smell
The smell of touch
The soil, it smells of a new beginning
As if a new possibility has arrived borne by the dark rain clouds

As if a new look of love has come into the eyes of your old lover.
My conversations with you
wordless and unreal they are
Yet I feel I can pick
them up at the exact place
where I left you so many years back.

You know exactly what I have to say
And when I hear you speak
I am reminded that we are old souls
Back in time
When the world was young
And we were wise
Together we would be
In a psychedelic of time and space,
Conversing.

So is it that what we had?
Give and take, caress and rake
With words?
Was our love just a love for words
I seriously wonder…
And hence, today when we can’t see each other
It’s them that stay
It’s our conversation that rings through the canyon of everyday existence.
We were nothing else.
We were everything

That a conversation could be.
Distractions are the allies of poets
The banker-poet
The lawyer-poet
Where would they be if not
for the distracting little birdies
that rustle about in their hair
and chirp in their ears.
The butterflies among the bulls
who beg to differ
who ache to not become
the banker banker
the lawyer lawyer

the nonconformists.

Ambition is a vice?

From what I have seen of people, Ambition has been seen to mark its bearer with a certain ruthlessness that translates to unfairness and apathy of others at times. True a man or a woman without ambition may not appear to be as driven as their counterparts but then are they the ones who are cleaner of being and nobler of souls? When Ashoka’s eyes had been coloured red with the fire of ambition to conquer, was he the same man he became towards the end? 
There is a young man I see every morning on my way to work. He must be about 25 years of age and to put it euphemistically there are things that aren’t right with his head. He sits on the sidewalk every single day and does exactly the same thing, collects gravel in his hands and smiles at the world. He is a gentleman, I personally have never spotted him in any mad rage, instead, he calls out benignly to any passing vehicle or animal and smiles shyly at them.